dragging on you

I don't know why I keep denying, keep denying, keep denying, keep denying, keep...
In fact, I never could deny your existence within my heart, my soul, my thought...though for years I'm living in absence...even I keep running away...and even I keep giving up...
Too pathetic may it seems, but hell, I don't care...that's what I feel that I can't deny...fortunately, I'm a survivor...

And if oneday I could manage to give up, for damn sure, that must not come from myself.

I love you...as always...